This week was one of the hardest weeks to go back to work. Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t a stressful week at work by far. It was just the simple act of getting up and going. I really enjoyed my week off with E. We did a lot of fun things {playing in the snow, Toy Story 3 on Ice, movies} and simply just hung out at home.

We also started Potty Training. At first, I thought it was going to be hard. He was not having any of it the first day. But then things started clicking. And I know it was because I was home with him and reminding him {and probably annoying him at the same time} to go.

Spending all that time with him just makes me think about all the things that I am missing while I am working. Someone else is praising him for going on the potty every day. Someone else is comforting him when he gets an owie. Someone else is gets to see him be cute when he puts on a guitar show {I really have to get this on video}.

I know I should count my blessings. I am lucky to have a job {a flexible one at that} in this economy. But I’m just not feeling it.

And now that there is another one on the way, my heart is aching to be with them 24/7 {remind me about this when I complain during my maternity leave}. If there was a way for me to stay at home, I would do it. This is something that the hubster and I plan to talk about and figure out. Having two children in daycare just does not make sense in my eyes.

I know that if I have to go back to work after my maternity leave, it will be the hardest thing. It will be even harder than when I came back after having E. I will miss my boys way too much.

And last week did not help this at all. It gave me a taste of what I could have. And hopefully, what I may have soon!


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